Is God Knowable? Good question, right? I mean, for someone who is invisible and hard to see, I can see how this would be a very relevant question for us. For me, before tragedy struck my life, I thought I knew who God was and what He was like. In the middle of one of my life’s early challenges, God refuses to answer my questions. How is God knowable if He won’t even talk to you? Answer your questions? After all, isn't this one of His biggest PR problems?
If you know anything about God, He rarely feels the need to explain Himself and what He does. Consequently, and at times, talking to Him is like talking to a brick wall, and everything feels like it is bouncing off. So, I did what any normal human being does when God doesn’t cooperate with their life’s plans. I threw a temper tantrum, saying something like, “well God, if you’re not going to talk to me, then I’m not going to talk to you! So there!” or something like that.
The only problem, this wasn’t just a small temper tantrum, you know where you get over it and yourself in a few days. No, I throw a 12-year temper tantrum. On top of that, I proceed to treat God with great disrespect. Come to think of it; I was rude and obnoxious to Him. I’m not sure why He didn’t send a lightning bolt or two my way! I most certainly deserved them.
Now imagine my shame when I finally woke up after being angry at God for 12-years and realized: God was never “picking” on me, He was protecting me, loving me, blessing me. I was just too stubborn to see it.
Why? Because I did not know God. I was unable to take what was going on in my life in one hand and what I know about Him in the other hand and say, “since I know God loves me, that I am extremely precious to Him, this challenge that He’s allowed to come into my life, must have a greater purpose to it and for me. This can’t possibly be God picking on me and having fun at my expense.” Of course, that would have required a level of wisdom I did not yet possess.
God was patient with me. Why, I do not know. Somehow, He opened my eyes to see what I was missing, to show me just how much He loved me, to help me understand and appreciate how truly blessed I am. To finally start seeing my life from “His” perspective.
What did I learn?
My “worldly” perspective of God needed to change. I needed to have a better perspective of who God is. Instead of asking Him WHY or asking Him to explain or defend Himself and what He in His wisdom has either done or allowed, I needed to change my perspective and my questions and ask God:
- What are You trying to teach me in this?
- What is it You want me to learn?
- How do You want me to respond to this?
- How can I shine Your light, Your love, and Your Son Jesus in and through this?
- How can I serve and glorify You in this?
- How can I use this to help me fall more in love with You?
By doing this, I could change my perspective from demanding answers from God to one of asking God how I can cooperate with Him and what He’s doing. I could now see my struggles as "opportunity" to strengthen and grow my relationship with God. To invest more time into getting to know Him. You see, God doesn’t have to defend Himself, especially to you. After all, He is God, and well, you are not.